happy 18th birthday to me

The clock struck 12 about an hour and a half ago. The day I never thought would come, the day that always seemed so far away, that day is finally here. So please will someone tell me why I can’t stop all these tears from running down my face.

I don’t know how I got here and I don’t know how this happened. Just the other day I started middle school and then a couple days after that I started high school, and now I’ve been in college for almost a month. It all sounds so exciting but the whole thought of the unknown is so frightening to me. Why am I here? How do I learn who I really am? How am I supposed to figure it out when everyone keeps being so loud. I can’t even hear my own thoughts sometimes..maybe that’s why I stay up to late at night when it’s almost morning and the only sound I can hear is the resonating ticking of the clock.

Tick.. Tock… Tick…

I am excited for the future.. and for rolling around in my new human sized hamster ball.

Yes, I am actually 18 now.